There is no doubt that every single one of us are sinner behind closed doors. We are people who sin and sometimes cross our Islamic boundaries.  Yes, we have for many times wronged our souls. If there is something l wish l didn’t do, it’s to sin against Allah, carelessly.

The evil in the world is becoming overwhelming and l am more scared of the consequences. Indeed, the end time is becoming more nearer. I saw a video of a woman with four children and a negative DNA result flying over the internet, and l said to myself, women can be very wicked.  Yes, l am a woman. And l have said many times that l fear women the most on this earth.  If you have suffered through women like yourself, you will understand more importantly who our women are.

It makes me wonder how unfaithful women can be. How wicked they had become. So, l remembers the hadith of the Prophet about Yajuj & Majuj, and when evil becomes overwhelming on the land.

The Prophet entered upon his wife Zaynab bint Jahsh in an agitated state one day, and said, “La ilaha ill-Allah, woe to the Arabs from an evil that has approached! Today a hole like this has been opened in the barrier of Yajuj and Majuj,” and he made a circle with his thumb and forefinger. Zaynab bint Jahsh said: “I said, ‘O Messenger of Allah, will we be destroyed even though there are righteous people among us?’ He said, ‘Yes if evil becomes overwhelming.’” (Reported by al-Bukhari, 3097). Aren’t we approaching it day by day?  So many evils we see and hear on the Internet. The case of a father impregnating his daughter may not be ignored. What can be more evil than that? Do men now need to do DNA on their children?

This is one thing Islam warned against. That “brother-in-law is death.” Islam also encourages us to be firm upon the deen. A God-fearing woman wouldn’t try to seek the wrath of Allah by displeasing him in this manner. So, she is careful and fearful -faithful and submissive to Allah and her husband. She wouldn’t take the path of destruction as thus many women are taking in our contemporary world. May Allah protect our women and may He ease the affairs of our men.

Umm Sumayyah Mai

Yesterday, l took my first daughter to the library approximately 30 minutes before closing time.  While l stayed in a private room with my laptop writing as usual, a call came in along with a text via Grandma’s phone.  Mum, this is Sumayyah, do not forget to get my books. Ok, I won’t, ln Shaa Allah, l responded.

Before l knew it, it was already 5 minutes before 9 p.m. So, l quickly went down to the children’s place to get her at least two books.  I grabbed one, and checked the back, Nah! ain’t taking this. Found another suitable one.  At this time, it was 8:57 pm, so l quickly grabbed one more for her without taking enough time to check. I took the book home and went straight to use the restroom.

Mum, this book isn’t good.  It has the LGBT thingy in it was the voice l heard.  I will not read this.  I came out and asked which of the books, and it was shown to me.  I thank Dr. Sumayyah for checking what she was about to read. And was pretty much able to detect that without delay. I was so proud of her last night.

Lessons Learned:

1. It’s important to always check any books we plan to give our children no matter the circumstances. That was a great lesson for me last night. Wouldn’t repeat it.
2. The importance of teaching your children the Halal and the Haram can’t be stressed enough.
3. I have written articles on this, and each time l do, l teach my children first and foremost, and l always make sure l create awareness on issues that are affecting our community as Muslims.
4. Do not think a child is too small to be taught the evil that goes around the world. The more they know, the better it is for their Islam and personalities. May Allah continue to protect us and our children.

Umm Sumayyah Mai

Then, l will be naked along with many males and females; uncircumcised, barefoot, and waiting for my judgment. The result of what l did in Dunya. I will not be able to see if sister Maryam is not putting on underwear, nor will I have the time to check if Brother Lukman has covered his private part. I, along with many other people will be overwhelmed. Waiting, waiting, and waiting in fear and humiliation.

I will be waiting under the scorching sun. And l will be sweating until my turn is reached and or perhaps until my name is called. I will not be able to look for my “Treasured Love.”  Nor will l be asking for my children. I alongside many other people will at that time, restless, tired, scared, and scattered. I will not remember my siblings nor will l look out for my parents.

“I will be more shocked, surprised, and scared when the contents of graves become scattered. And the sky breaks apart. And the stars fall, scattering. And the heaven split open.  I will be more scared when my hands and feet begin to speak of what they used to earn. Of what l do with them while l was on the surface of the earth.”

And l, alongside many other people (male & female), will be brought to account for every major and minor action we did in this world, whether it was good or bad. And we will be rewarded for our good deeds and perhaps be questioned about our bad deeds. I am scared and scared penning this down, right now.

And when the “Lord of the Majestic throne say to the Angels, Look at My slave’s prayer, is it complete or lacking?’ If it is complete, it will be recorded as complete, but if it is lacking, He will say, ‘Look and see whether my slave did any voluntary (naafil) prayers.’ If he had done voluntary prayers, He would say, ‘Complete the obligatory prayers of My slave from his voluntary prayers.’ Then the rest of his deeds will be examined similarly.”

And we would be asked about other matters. At this point, l do not know what l will be saying. And perhaps, the answers l will give when these five questions are asked:  “My life and how l spent it, my youth and how l used it, my wealth and how l earned it, and how l disposed of it, and how l acted upon what l acquired of knowledge.”

Oh Allah! Do not humiliate me on the day of judgment. Oh Allah! do not put me to shame on the day of the greatest fear. Oh Allah! conceal all my faults. Oh, Allah erase all my sins. Oh Allah! do not disgrace us. Oh Allah! Be merciful with us, overlook our shortcomings, and grant us steadfastness upon your Deen! Ya Rabbal ‘A’alaameen!